2011/4/19
The tree stood slightly off kilter as I approached. It's branches limited to the few remaining thicks. A gnarled bunch of vines ,the only life on it, held a broken branch like a hagged witch holds a stolen babe, ever careful and tight. It had probably been there for ages, and shall remain longer. It's obstinance held it by the road, occasionally dropping a large limb in the road to stop passers by. It long ago lost it's green and grow yet still it waited, watching the world go by in a constant decay. What means did it have to sit so strong with death. In the life after it was more-so ominous than in life. The path beyond was clearer and more like the rest. Not hidden by the shade of some awful eldritch tree.
Colors of white, purple and the hint of yellow paved a bright path onward through the green. While the overwhelming shades of green bounced the rays of light down among the shrubs and tall grass. A woodpecker beat his timly song on the tallest of old wood. I imagine the pauses in his rhyme was for calming the vibration of it's skull. He went on drumming as the song birds tweeted their lovely spring songs. The buzz buzz buzzing of bees along the path only when near the flowers was a reminder to me that the nectar was not for me, but for other beasts. I pressed on.
As I reach a shaded path it began to slink and climb upward, darkend by the overhanging arms of oaks and pine. The musty smell of stagnat water filled my senses as the pain of bites on my neck was tale to where I've entered. This bit was for the creatures of shadow, ones that bite and stalk. Taking your life from you without your notice, until it's too late and a pain courses through your vein. The rain hadn't came in a few days, yet it seemed like it had only a few hours ago. The constant draining from the hill left the path worn and washed away on both sides. Man had scattered and packed small stones to hold natures course. His success measured in only months or years as the waters ever present flow waits, it creeps, even stalks the path. Eventually devouring it and driving man away.
The hills beyond were seemingly close, no more than a days walk on a prarie. But through these thick woods and hidden valleys lied at least another days journey.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Small beefs
It has been quite awhile since I've created some rant or other in written for to share with the world. Here's a few snippets I wrote:
It's been a long yet short road that I've traveled thus far. Time is a tricky beast. To some it passes like a snail slowling winding it's way along a path, never in a hurry. To others it's like a hummingbird always moving, never resting looking for that next meal. To me it's a double headed monster. when i yearn for the speedy dilevery I get the pace of an elderly man. Yet, the moments that last for mere minutes I'd hope would last for ages. I can only hope I have a better control of my grasp of time in the future that i may bear witness to these experiences with a better sense of all things important to me. To better understand myself is the goal. But what is "I" without everything else. All are one yet i'm allowed to be free and individual in my thoughts.
Being alone is a feeling one experiences whether one chooses or not.
The golden memories that lie out of reach but ever on your mind are a tantalizing reminder of the good parts of life. Is that all there is. Is it in the action or in the memory that happiness lies?
I dont really enjoy sex, it feels awkward. But making love, feeling passionatly about someone. That really gets me going.
human condition
Also a 2009 post I never got around to publishing, probably because it's so short.
This condition of life that we have became to me seems contradictive. Why do we still have such a strong fear centered emotional mind? The irrational outbursts and quick fight or flight responses to situations make the worst of most situations. We have not evolved very much recently. I am unsure if we will evolve much more beyond our current species because of our power of tools. Tools give us the advantage to not need to evolve. We are adapted perfectly to this world. We can use almost everything available to us. It's an incredible feat, especially considering how ignorant we've been for so long. Thank science for the scientific revolution. It has allowed us a step away from the fear. We have plenty of time to go before we can remove the fear that holds us. In my country, the United States, we have an increasing populous of fear mongers. Whether it be religious, political, racist, xenophobic, terrorist, etc the ignorance and fear is more prominent than curiosity and strong will.
This condition of life that we have became to me seems contradictive. Why do we still have such a strong fear centered emotional mind? The irrational outbursts and quick fight or flight responses to situations make the worst of most situations. We have not evolved very much recently. I am unsure if we will evolve much more beyond our current species because of our power of tools. Tools give us the advantage to not need to evolve. We are adapted perfectly to this world. We can use almost everything available to us. It's an incredible feat, especially considering how ignorant we've been for so long. Thank science for the scientific revolution. It has allowed us a step away from the fear. We have plenty of time to go before we can remove the fear that holds us. In my country, the United States, we have an increasing populous of fear mongers. Whether it be religious, political, racist, xenophobic, terrorist, etc the ignorance and fear is more prominent than curiosity and strong will.
Why are you putting up with it?
I have neglected this blog, mainly so I don't scare family members. But you know what, it doesn't matter. They should be smart enough to figure things out for themselves. This was written in 2009, but I'm just now getting around to publishing it.
Religion is a topic many are shy to talk about. I'm most certainly not one of those people. Let me tell you a bit about my religious background. I was born to Christian parents, going to church only on occasion, but the fear of God was and is still with them. In my early teen years I often had conversations with this God people speak of. All it did was make me more frustrated. So I thought, hey maybe I'm praying to the wrong god. So I start researching different religions, I've purchased many books and read many online articles. My favorite at the time was Taoism, which some would say is not a religion. But lets get into that topic. Religion is held on grounds that faith alone is what makes it true. Now, faith is the belief in something without any proof. Having faith in someone is denying your gut instinct and taking their word for it. To me this is the biggest problem we as humans face. Trusting what others say, even though they seem far fetched, is very bad business. I pride myself in not taking anyone's word for it. I want to know for myself. Question everything, that's my motto. It has helped me understand more about everything. I feel accomplished as many things I have figured out myself. I one time, believed that there was no such thing as human nature. But I was wrong, it's just people describe it wrong and assume things are natural that are far from it. We have a will to survive, which has turned into a war against our own kind. Take our planet for example. Why are we split into Nations? Why are we not allowed to travel the world without other peoples consent? Why are we forced into work? Why are we bullied our whole lives? And really, why are we putting up with it? Because we have faith that our leaders are doing the best thing for us? Obviously you haven't seen the world. But let me get back on topic for a moment. Religion has been a great help in pulling us together and forming nations, killing nonbelievers, and eventually educating the people. But it's always been lies, stories passed down and twisted to suit the needs of the leaders. Religion was once the law, and still is in some places. It saddens me to know that we are holding on to thousand year old beliefs with such fervor. I mean, we don't still believe that the earth is flat do we? Do we also still believe in dragons? Fear has been the driving point for many peoples religious view. They feel that if they don't do good and fear their chosen god that they will burn forever (or some other great pain). Scare tactics to make you conform. Plain and simple. Just look around you, this magnificent world in which we live in IS the garden of Eden. It evolves, but it is still the best place for life. Everything living was spawned here all because the right conditions were met. Liquid water and sunlight has given us the gift of life. But no, the old pagan religion is silly. Why would anyone worship the earth? I find it humorous that the pagan's had a better idea of religion than any of the most popular religions today.
Why do we even have a religion? Can people just not go about their business without making up giant all powerful people? I think it's human nature to want to control everything, so that you may survive optimally. So what do we do? We create a personal god that only talks to us and never in the presence of another. Yes this god is all powerful but he can't talk to more than one person at a time. I once asked an evangelical christian how to talk to God, as my tries failed. He suggested I go to a remote area where noone was around at all. Hmm... so what? I can convince myself that my subconscience is a god? People actually believe in these things with no proof but a book. Well I hate to be the bearer of bad news but there is more than 1 book available for you to read. Many of them have all the killing and sex as the bible does. Why not read some Anne Rice novels? I'm sure you can get your biggotry from it just as well as you can the bible. Excuses, passing the blame, that's what God is used for. Oh no, I don't hate homosexuals, God hates them. He told me they are the work of the devil. Yeah, pass the blame for your hate.
Religion is a topic many are shy to talk about. I'm most certainly not one of those people. Let me tell you a bit about my religious background. I was born to Christian parents, going to church only on occasion, but the fear of God was and is still with them. In my early teen years I often had conversations with this God people speak of. All it did was make me more frustrated. So I thought, hey maybe I'm praying to the wrong god. So I start researching different religions, I've purchased many books and read many online articles. My favorite at the time was Taoism, which some would say is not a religion. But lets get into that topic. Religion is held on grounds that faith alone is what makes it true. Now, faith is the belief in something without any proof. Having faith in someone is denying your gut instinct and taking their word for it. To me this is the biggest problem we as humans face. Trusting what others say, even though they seem far fetched, is very bad business. I pride myself in not taking anyone's word for it. I want to know for myself. Question everything, that's my motto. It has helped me understand more about everything. I feel accomplished as many things I have figured out myself. I one time, believed that there was no such thing as human nature. But I was wrong, it's just people describe it wrong and assume things are natural that are far from it. We have a will to survive, which has turned into a war against our own kind. Take our planet for example. Why are we split into Nations? Why are we not allowed to travel the world without other peoples consent? Why are we forced into work? Why are we bullied our whole lives? And really, why are we putting up with it? Because we have faith that our leaders are doing the best thing for us? Obviously you haven't seen the world. But let me get back on topic for a moment. Religion has been a great help in pulling us together and forming nations, killing nonbelievers, and eventually educating the people. But it's always been lies, stories passed down and twisted to suit the needs of the leaders. Religion was once the law, and still is in some places. It saddens me to know that we are holding on to thousand year old beliefs with such fervor. I mean, we don't still believe that the earth is flat do we? Do we also still believe in dragons? Fear has been the driving point for many peoples religious view. They feel that if they don't do good and fear their chosen god that they will burn forever (or some other great pain). Scare tactics to make you conform. Plain and simple. Just look around you, this magnificent world in which we live in IS the garden of Eden. It evolves, but it is still the best place for life. Everything living was spawned here all because the right conditions were met. Liquid water and sunlight has given us the gift of life. But no, the old pagan religion is silly. Why would anyone worship the earth? I find it humorous that the pagan's had a better idea of religion than any of the most popular religions today.
Why do we even have a religion? Can people just not go about their business without making up giant all powerful people? I think it's human nature to want to control everything, so that you may survive optimally. So what do we do? We create a personal god that only talks to us and never in the presence of another. Yes this god is all powerful but he can't talk to more than one person at a time. I once asked an evangelical christian how to talk to God, as my tries failed. He suggested I go to a remote area where noone was around at all. Hmm... so what? I can convince myself that my subconscience is a god? People actually believe in these things with no proof but a book. Well I hate to be the bearer of bad news but there is more than 1 book available for you to read. Many of them have all the killing and sex as the bible does. Why not read some Anne Rice novels? I'm sure you can get your biggotry from it just as well as you can the bible. Excuses, passing the blame, that's what God is used for. Oh no, I don't hate homosexuals, God hates them. He told me they are the work of the devil. Yeah, pass the blame for your hate.
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